What just happened that makes me wish i had C4..

sigh!!!… ok so i was talking to dad about how they take everything away for random indefinete amounts of time any time i ever do anything and he said it was his ‘right’ as my dad/parent to do so. then i said well appropriate grounding of certain things are ok but you both take everything and it gets old. then he got mad at me and said that i just cant deal with consequneces and getting what i deserve for my actions and im just too rebellious and stuff!!! then he said IF i cleaned my room before mon and kept it that way for a couple months then he MIGHT THINK about taking small steps to unground me. they make me so frustrated i want to cry and so mad i want to hurt someone! but i dont believe crying ever solves anything and i would never hurt anyone… i think im going to burst.. what to do?